Daughter of the risen one! (:

November 12, 2010

What is the retaining factor in your life?

Filed under: Blibical — Tags: , , , , , — CynthiaAcacia @ 10:30 pm

Hi so tired today (: Have to wear formal x.x
On the train home while I was playing out imaginative scenarios in my mind,
I  suddenly thought of this hahahaha.

People should be the attracting factor, not the retaining factor.

Churches: The attracting factor is always mainly people, but the retaining factor must always be God!

People can’t see God, they see us because without knowing it, they are actually seeing our God we so proclaim to be true through our lives. So are you glorifying God today? Because the world’s perception of God is through Christians, if our lives are not glorifying God and that God is not real in our lives, who are we to say that God is real in our lives? That’s hypocrisy!

And this comes to the point that because of not having a relationship with God, lost sheep have to see people to see Christ, but when they know Christ they really have to KNOW Christ! That is the retaining factor, God! They have to stop seeing the canvas you paint through Christ and pick that brush up and paint it on their canvas with Christ.

Humans can never be the retaining factor, because we are imperfect. And because of that we sometimes do things that are not glorifying to God and to others. We tend to hurt people accidentally, we flare up, we don’t strive for excellence in the things we do, we get jealous and insecure. That’s all not glorifying God. If the retaining factor is people, that sheep will not only not grow much (It is only in Christ that we experience growth), he/she will not be living his/her life for God’s purposes (because he/she loves the praises of men more than God’s, he/she saw people, not God! God is not that real in his/her life!), he/she will not only leave in the end, he/she will leave with a hurt in her/his heart that God is not a good God. And that’s not true and we know it.

And although as much as I hate to admit it sometimes, God is definitely the creator of our lives. Jesus is definitely God’s son. The holy spirit definitely exists in our lives. God definitely loves people, God definitely loves me. Jesus definitely died for our sins, Jesus definitely loves me more than I love Him. The holy spirit definitely can move in our lives, the holy spirit definitely wants to move in us more than we want it to move in us. And that people will definitely be the retaining factor in our lives if our eyes are not focused on God.

Sure, I know all these even before this sentence was revealed to me.

But it gave me a fresh new perspective and judging by how it was phrased.
It definetly wasn’t from me, in fact I was so amazed with it hahahaha.
Ok tomorrow’s Saturday :)
God I need your anoiting!
I still have 2 math papers, the invite card (oops, but it’s half done haha),
WFL tomorrow and haha sleep ):



November 11, 2010

On the train home.

Filed under: Blibical — CynthiaAcacia @ 1:29 am

As I was thinking about the lyrics for safe, I wondered how it’s even relevant to us.

I mean, we’re not even blind, crippled or disease riddened right?

Gives sight to the blind..
Pull the lame up to their feet..
These are the hands that healed the leper..
And then I realised, we are in a way, blind people, crippled and disease ridden.
We often let our insecurities, worldly things, pride, lust etc blind us.
We need God to pull those planks out of our eyes!
We often fall down because of trials, troubles, tiredness etc. In a way we’re crippled.
We need God to help us back on our feet, to walk the path He intended!
We often have hidden sins, unrepented sins etc. They are weights making us diseased.
We need God to heal us of this leprosy!

My God is amazing yes? (=

And I’m glad that I took a choice to change my mindset from being self-centered,
to decided to be more people-centered,
to someone who focused on the problem instead of the person.
Thank you for the repeated prompting, G (:
Even though I was so hardened towards the situation, he must mean a lot to you.

Teach me how to love like you do.

And you know my God saved the day

and you know His word never fails

and I know my God saved the day for me~

November 9, 2010

These people, make me cry. Happily.

Filed under: Blibical — Tags: , , — CynthiaAcacia @ 12:20 am

I really thank God that there’s always someone in my life that’s not afraid to point out my mistakes and sins.

I thank God that there will always be that one person there at every station of my spiritual life.

I really love these people who care more about my spiritual life than my comfort.

They are people who see the value of God and the value of me in God,

they are people who believe that I can change through Christ.

Such thing can be felt, I feel loved when these people correct me.

Not hurt or angry nor pissed off because I can feel that their motive is pure.

That they only want me to do one thing, to glorify God.

What makes me stop in my tracks of responding negatively,

is more than respect for them,

more than fear or tongue-tied,

but love. The courage to just blatantly correct me straight in my face.

And whenever they correct me, I just know this thing in the midst of trying hard to change,

so hard that it befuddle me sometimes.

But I know deep inside as the holy spirit would tell me,

someday I’m going to thank this person who loves my very life.


November 7, 2010


Filed under: Blibical, Rantings — CynthiaAcacia @ 2:19 pm

There are no hopeless people, only faithless people.

Lol and I guess finally someone exposed my denials LOL.

And it had to be Weiloong =.= lol lol lol.


Ok ): I don’t know how to do it.

I have so many on my to-do list and ):

OK I’m emotionally unstable now.

Until then, BYE

November 5, 2010


Filed under: Blibical — Tags: , , — CynthiaAcacia @ 2:14 am

I’ve been rejoicing! :D

So many things coming my way, bad ones.
But I’m rejoicing =D
You have no idea how great it feels to be happy when you’re supposed to be sad/angry.
That’s called rejoicing! Not when everything’s fine and your life’s easy
but when everything starts to oppose you, when nothing is going right.
And for that, I don’t see a need to have negative feelings towards such things anymore!
And I don’t see why anyone should.
There’s really no reason/excuse to be sad over such things.
I’m a overcomer in Christ! =)
This sin has no longer a foothold in my life! :D *KICKS*
I’m rejoicing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Look at me Satan! I’m REJOICING :D *DANCES*
The best part is that, you know that G must be very proud of you for overcoming!
I will be a cheerful cheerful cheerful believer!!!!!!! *SMILESSSSSSSSSS*

November 3, 2010

& with the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks.

Filed under: Blibical, Rantings — CynthiaAcacia @ 2:33 am

I want.. to be an easier person to be around with ):
Easier to do life with…
Easier to share life with…
Easier to talk with…
Easier to understand about…
I don’t want to just be a person that people want to have fun with.
A person that just passes by their lives for a moment.
Argh. It’s easy to click but that’s not the whole point…
I need more than someone whom I can click with, talk with.
I need someone to show me true friendship.
Sometimes I wonder if being different really matters to others.
I mean, I don’t really see what’s so good about different.
Perhaps it’s because people are not borned different? And they want to be unique?
Unique also equals different which many a times also equals weird.
Which sucks.
As much as I love the quote:
Why are you trying so hard to fit in, when you’re borned to stand out?
It makes me feel like a freak sometimes.
With people constantly calling you weird.
I learned to minimise it, so that it’s not as visible.
I remember someone told me that G will use me differently,
because I’m different.
And it isn’t such a bad thing cause,
I will be able to reach out to those whom others will not be able to reach out to.
Yet some people say everybody is different and unique in their own way,
so people who say that they are different are just trying to get attraction.
Yet it’s cause they really don’t understand the pain.
The pain that comes with the mixture of compliment and insults.
So if I’m deemed this way, am I still trying to get attraction?
As if I want to. Seriously.
Shucks, hate that.
I need to know the true meaning of friendship.


SMILES at you Satan! Take that. In your face!

October 30, 2010

Updates on life in 29th and 30th October.

Filed under: Blibical, Random crap (:, Rantings — Tags: , , , , , , — CynthiaAcacia @ 10:29 am

My dad woke me up at 6 plus today.
Cause I yesterday slept super early yesterday lol.
HUH ): Means what Theresa predicted was correct T_T
I ate waffles for my 3 meals LOL.
Breakfast- 1 Choclate waffle from W1
Lunch- 2 Chocolate + cornflakes waffles from Lawn (3-4 bites she ate)
Dinner- 1 plain waffle + Mint ice-cream + Liquid Hershley chocolate from the kopitiam?
Near Theresa’s house. Ate with Kwan Shyan.
Kwan and I got lost yesterday LOL.
I had fun fellowshipping. But ya la ya la tired la -.- GRRRRRR.

Lol, it’s funny just how different we are yet can click almost instanteously.

I love my guava / gingerbread girl / lu chi / bai chi! :D
LOL I got miss anything out?
After our first group together we immediately started talking online already.
LOL. At first I never really notice her lei. HAHAAHAH.
I think we have a special connection ^^
Yay I’m so happy! Yesterday Theresa said that she wants to go church!
To have fun la, but who doesn’t in the begining?
Made me so damn happy. ♥ Especially because she didn’t want to last Friday.
See? People see us, not God.  That’s why it’s super important to watch our actions and speech.
They can’t see God, but they see how God has changed us and who God’s people are.
I hope that when I invite her for next service she will be willing to come =)
Excited for God! I can’t wait to see how He’s going to move in her life!
She may not come I don’t know. But this is really an encouragment for me!=)
God is faithful indeed ^^

So hungry now. Ate 3-4 pieces of jelly just now.

I like cause it’s boucy and smooth LOL. Sounds wrong.
I like plain jellies {=
Felt a bit burdened just now cause of my classmate.
And I completed my RJ wit the help of Anthony HAHAHAHA!
Thank God for you!
Oh and YAYYYYYYY! I get to design the invite cards for pre-Christmas.
I promise I will try my best to do a Godly job! =)
LOL. So damn happy. ♥♥♥♥♥

 WFL LATER AT 12! I’m going for Life managment essentials. BATHE!

You know what you planned for me G. I may lag now.
But I’m going to experience exponential growth and  be a warrior for Christ!
Faithful potter, mould me, lead me, use me and guide me.
Faithful God, help me to see my potential in you, help me to be a woman of G.
Faithful servant and prophet of God, Elijah, tell me the story of God through your life.
Faithful leader and servant of all, teach me to be more like you.


After WFL, I expect growth!


Filed under: Blibical, Rantings — CynthiaAcacia @ 6:55 am


哦,不,是我忘了. 这不是一个完美的世界.



English translation:

What is happening to this world?

No, it’s me who has forgotten. This is not a perfect world.

Jesus please hear me, I never encourage relationships this young. But why are people suffering from these heartbreaks? Why must they torture themselves like that? God this isn’t the love they need, please tell me. Why do you put me in this environment? Are you trying to tell me something? My mind is whirling with so many questions but yet not a single answer. My heart breaks every time I see these people around me suffer from their own actions and decisions. People’s tears rolling down from their faces, their hearts breaking from the inside. They smile as if nothing has happened but they have died on the inside. I know cause I was lost and without God once and now I’m seeing people lost without God too. Their lives were dependant on this relationship and now it was gone. A relationship that’s built on the weak human heart and I realised from them that, I’m glad that ours is built on the foundation of God. A foundation of the cross. But still God, I’m burdened. I want a solution for them, but sometimes I’m afraid that Jesus the solution they will not accept due to religion issues. I don’t know God, I really don’t know what to do. Tell me please?

Dear readers, I’m not sure if this translation will be correct. So I am sorry if the chinese translation is wrong.

October 29, 2010

I feel so sub-standard.

Filed under: Blibical, Random crap (: — CynthiaAcacia @ 8:33 am

I re-designed the Marcomm Email invite.
And I’m disappointed in myself.
Perhaps this is why G called me to Decor / Production Design and not Marcomm (Designer).

I feel so lousy and cui upon seeing it.
Is that what Adults view as formal, appropriate and nice?
Stunned. Later this one also can’t go through..
I don’t know. I guess I’m really not cut out for Marcomm.
Make matters worse,
I think that only Natalie and me are the designers in the whole Marcomm.
This just looks so sub-standard.
I prefer my first design..
Hais, it just makes my life come tumbling down.
Rather upset about it, I was hoping I could do better.
Hais. I don’t want to complain about the Hope resources.
But, not to my expectation.
When I saw them I was like:
WHAT? How am I supposed to use these and make it look professional?
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. G please make a way for me ):
And today’s stupid Math.
My facilitator never come!

October 28, 2010

G make a way!

Filed under: Blibical, Random crap (: — Tags: , , , , — CynthiaAcacia @ 1:48 pm

I dreamt of my Decor / Production Design Ministry leader yesterday.
Umm… hahhahaha :D
Lol anyway, Production Design Ministry is the new name for Decor ministry.
Yayy! I think Decor is getting fun lei seriously.
He asked us if we have any ideas for the church based Christmas tree
I have thought of it le la and I think a paper based Christmas tree would be stylish and unique.
LOL Inspiration from food :D HAHAHA
And the t-shirt I also think of it le (= Going to do out the design and send him later.

Marcomm leader replied she say must more formal cause for 40 years old adults.

I don’t know how to change it ><
She also asked if I know how to design invite cards.
LOL I told her I all first time ):
Well if she give me do I don’t mind lor, just that it’s my first time )=
And I will have to rack my brains to think how to do again LOL.
But yayy! Art makes me happy (=
Hahah okay, I’m going to go home and do out the design for both Marcomm and Decor.
Can’t wait for school and LG to end! :)

Hahah ok so bad ): BUT, I’m really excited.

I still remember in the past I would loved to see my designs and inspirations on display.
LOL not recognition la, just that it satisfies me in seeing that G is using me!!!
Will be so happy to use this talent he gave.
Hahah although I don’t have the spiritual gift of Creative comm ):
But, G gave me talent to fill my lack (=
God is great yea! :D
Do finish I will post it on blog de (= Happy happy~


I read the email wrongly ): Is T-shirt only LOL.
Sian, hais this is what you get when you are bored by lessons x.x.
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