Zzz slept in library just now. Like finally.Borrowed 6 spiritual books + 1 manga drawing. Hahah, it’s time to improve! Both in my skills and my spiritual life. I got to give my best for God! :)
Namely: SIN, a handbook for effective youth ministry, God’s bold call to women, the myth of the cross, battle cry for a generation and the passionate church.
I cannot wait to start on all of them (: Especially the passionate church, part of it talks about unchurched Christians. Yes! :) (Y)
God am I really that wierd and hard to understand?
Why does everybody think that I say chim (complicated) things sometimes that they cannot understand? Did I not simplify it to my best why does it still sound so foreign to them? Hais, why uh God why I go everywhere will have that one or two guy like to kajiao me so much. I a lot of things to poke about huh, just make sure your don’t push the wrong button, or taste my flare of well ahem. Terror. I make sure you won’t dare to speak to me lol, ok actually that occurs naturally, I don’t even need to try. Zzz, I think it’s cause of my reaction wise uh? LOL.Zzz, I’m damn fed up with RP. Ever since I’ve sent that email last Friday they haven’t got back to me. How efficient. Truly God, if this is a test of time I’m anxious. I really am. I cannot stand the thought of facing my fears and getting heart attacks. Take my cup from me God, if you’re willing. Let not my will but yours be done. Just let me transfer out of the SHL hell hole ): >< FALLING BACKWARDS! ARGHH. Watch me die people, just watch me get into the mental hospital.
I’m very troubled by zWest in Youth,Zzz no that’s not the reason why I borrowed the handbook for effective youth ministry. God, it’s definetly harder to look on as they struggle against themselves, than to be in this struggle with them. I can’t do anything physically. Gek Kim asked me if it was possible to revert back to the days where they were spiritually strong as a family. BT said no. I tell you the truth, God says yes. But what I want to ask you people is that: Are you willing to make the sacrifice?
Are you willing to have that same heart and passion for God, giving Him your time and investing in His kingdom?Or are crushes, school work, work, social influences, money more of a matter to you. These things may still be important but what are you’re doing this for? For God or your selfish desires? For His kingdom or your own gain? Foolish are you who turns away from the Word which gives everlasting light and life, do you not see that many are now blinded? Perhaps you have forgotten this, but HEAR THIS. NOBODY CAN SERVE BOTH MASTERS. SERVE YOURSELF OR GOD. Your choice, your life. Forfeit the world and you will gain His kingdom, by adhering to the pleasures of sins what more of a people pleaser are you!
God you know how I feel, you know how I break for them.