Daughter of the risen one! (:

November 12, 2010

What is the retaining factor in your life?

Filed under: Blibical — Tags: , , , , , — CynthiaAcacia @ 10:30 pm

Hi so tired today (: Have to wear formal x.x
On the train home while I was playing out imaginative scenarios in my mind,
I  suddenly thought of this hahahaha.

People should be the attracting factor, not the retaining factor.

Churches: The attracting factor is always mainly people, but the retaining factor must always be God!

People can’t see God, they see us because without knowing it, they are actually seeing our God we so proclaim to be true through our lives. So are you glorifying God today? Because the world’s perception of God is through Christians, if our lives are not glorifying God and that God is not real in our lives, who are we to say that God is real in our lives? That’s hypocrisy!

And this comes to the point that because of not having a relationship with God, lost sheep have to see people to see Christ, but when they know Christ they really have to KNOW Christ! That is the retaining factor, God! They have to stop seeing the canvas you paint through Christ and pick that brush up and paint it on their canvas with Christ.

Humans can never be the retaining factor, because we are imperfect. And because of that we sometimes do things that are not glorifying to God and to others. We tend to hurt people accidentally, we flare up, we don’t strive for excellence in the things we do, we get jealous and insecure. That’s all not glorifying God. If the retaining factor is people, that sheep will not only not grow much (It is only in Christ that we experience growth), he/she will not be living his/her life for God’s purposes (because he/she loves the praises of men more than God’s, he/she saw people, not God! God is not that real in his/her life!), he/she will not only leave in the end, he/she will leave with a hurt in her/his heart that God is not a good God. And that’s not true and we know it.

And although as much as I hate to admit it sometimes, God is definitely the creator of our lives. Jesus is definitely God’s son. The holy spirit definitely exists in our lives. God definitely loves people, God definitely loves me. Jesus definitely died for our sins, Jesus definitely loves me more than I love Him. The holy spirit definitely can move in our lives, the holy spirit definitely wants to move in us more than we want it to move in us. And that people will definitely be the retaining factor in our lives if our eyes are not focused on God.

Sure, I know all these even before this sentence was revealed to me.

But it gave me a fresh new perspective and judging by how it was phrased.
It definetly wasn’t from me, in fact I was so amazed with it hahahaha.
Ok tomorrow’s Saturday :)
God I need your anoiting!
I still have 2 math papers, the invite card (oops, but it’s half done haha),
WFL tomorrow and haha sleep ):



November 9, 2010

These people, make me cry. Happily.

Filed under: Blibical — Tags: , , — CynthiaAcacia @ 12:20 am

I really thank God that there’s always someone in my life that’s not afraid to point out my mistakes and sins.

I thank God that there will always be that one person there at every station of my spiritual life.

I really love these people who care more about my spiritual life than my comfort.

They are people who see the value of God and the value of me in God,

they are people who believe that I can change through Christ.

Such thing can be felt, I feel loved when these people correct me.

Not hurt or angry nor pissed off because I can feel that their motive is pure.

That they only want me to do one thing, to glorify God.

What makes me stop in my tracks of responding negatively,

is more than respect for them,

more than fear or tongue-tied,

but love. The courage to just blatantly correct me straight in my face.

And whenever they correct me, I just know this thing in the midst of trying hard to change,

so hard that it befuddle me sometimes.

But I know deep inside as the holy spirit would tell me,

someday I’m going to thank this person who loves my very life.


June 5, 2010

My heartfelt thoughts that nobody can ever take away.

Filed under: Blibical — Tags: , , , , , , — CynthiaAcacia @ 2:07 pm

Service later :/
To tell the truth, I’m still not very used to the tertiary style.
Shreedhee asked me whether I still prefer Youth or tertiary.
I still prefer Youth..

I remember in Youth, we’d meet up before going to service together.


I wonder if anyone here would forget to go?
And if anyone would feel so sian to go alone that he / she decided not to go anymore?
Ultimately yes, it’s about the heart and the heart desires.
But an idle mind is the devil’s playground.
How sure are we that during the train / bus journey there
that someone would not think of such evil things against God etc?
Sure there’s discernment and we are to guard our hearts but..
how about those newer believers?
How about those people who are tired of serving?

I think one thing in youth that kept me going for service was the people.

We do more than plugging our ears with music on the train.
We shared life, we connected with our visitors through actions, care and words.
Their joy in Christ was pure joy and bliss to me.
It was a sight to behold.
Though we are a noisy group ( haha ) but I think love was in the atmosphere.
And it’s not just love for the people, God was also there.
When two or more gathers, there the presence of God will be.
The love for God,
is more than incredible.

And I loved it.

Which I do plug my ears very often nowadays since well, there’s particularly no one to talk to.
Talk to God?
Put your heart in peace?
Many a times I ride that dreaded train journey in loneliness.

I can’t expect everyone to meet up, since

  1. Everyone lives in different areas
  2. There surely will be people who are late
Sure, my youth group wasn’t perfect either.
People were late too :/
In such cases,
two or three people would wait for the late person while the others went ahead first.
Cause we might be late for service, wouldn’t want that (:
I miss sitting on the stairs of the boon lay MRT station waiting for people.
It’s funny how it was such a habit that nobody bothered to hold it against anyone.
I guess it will be a hassle for the tertiary people even if we were to meet up in their areas.
But, I do miss it.

I think that’s the stronghold of our unity.

Shreedhee said last time she would want to go back to youth but now she prefers tertiary.
For me, my answer stays the same.
If I had a chance,
I’d still go back to youth.
Yes, even if I had to start anew with different people.
That’s different from living in the past people.

I’m not living in the past, I just miss it.

 After reading this, scold me if you want for holding to the past.
But that is something I will never trade for.

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