Daughter of the risen one! (:

November 12, 2010

What is the retaining factor in your life?

Filed under: Blibical — Tags: , , , , , — CynthiaAcacia @ 10:30 pm

Hi so tired today (: Have to wear formal x.x
On the train home while I was playing out imaginative scenarios in my mind,
I  suddenly thought of this hahahaha.

People should be the attracting factor, not the retaining factor.

Churches: The attracting factor is always mainly people, but the retaining factor must always be God!

People can’t see God, they see us because without knowing it, they are actually seeing our God we so proclaim to be true through our lives. So are you glorifying God today? Because the world’s perception of God is through Christians, if our lives are not glorifying God and that God is not real in our lives, who are we to say that God is real in our lives? That’s hypocrisy!

And this comes to the point that because of not having a relationship with God, lost sheep have to see people to see Christ, but when they know Christ they really have to KNOW Christ! That is the retaining factor, God! They have to stop seeing the canvas you paint through Christ and pick that brush up and paint it on their canvas with Christ.

Humans can never be the retaining factor, because we are imperfect. And because of that we sometimes do things that are not glorifying to God and to others. We tend to hurt people accidentally, we flare up, we don’t strive for excellence in the things we do, we get jealous and insecure. That’s all not glorifying God. If the retaining factor is people, that sheep will not only not grow much (It is only in Christ that we experience growth), he/she will not be living his/her life for God’s purposes (because he/she loves the praises of men more than God’s, he/she saw people, not God! God is not that real in his/her life!), he/she will not only leave in the end, he/she will leave with a hurt in her/his heart that God is not a good God. And that’s not true and we know it.

And although as much as I hate to admit it sometimes, God is definitely the creator of our lives. Jesus is definitely God’s son. The holy spirit definitely exists in our lives. God definitely loves people, God definitely loves me. Jesus definitely died for our sins, Jesus definitely loves me more than I love Him. The holy spirit definitely can move in our lives, the holy spirit definitely wants to move in us more than we want it to move in us. And that people will definitely be the retaining factor in our lives if our eyes are not focused on God.

Sure, I know all these even before this sentence was revealed to me.

But it gave me a fresh new perspective and judging by how it was phrased.
It definetly wasn’t from me, in fact I was so amazed with it hahahaha.
Ok tomorrow’s Saturday :)
God I need your anoiting!
I still have 2 math papers, the invite card (oops, but it’s half done haha),
WFL tomorrow and haha sleep ):

 Alright, LALALALA GET TO WORK!

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November 9, 2010

These people, make me cry. Happily.

Filed under: Blibical — Tags: , , — CynthiaAcacia @ 12:20 am

I really thank God that there’s always someone in my life that’s not afraid to point out my mistakes and sins.

I thank God that there will always be that one person there at every station of my spiritual life.

I really love these people who care more about my spiritual life than my comfort.

They are people who see the value of God and the value of me in God,

they are people who believe that I can change through Christ.

Such thing can be felt, I feel loved when these people correct me.

Not hurt or angry nor pissed off because I can feel that their motive is pure.

That they only want me to do one thing, to glorify God.

What makes me stop in my tracks of responding negatively,

is more than respect for them,

more than fear or tongue-tied,

but love. The courage to just blatantly correct me straight in my face.

And whenever they correct me, I just know this thing in the midst of trying hard to change,

so hard that it befuddle me sometimes.

But I know deep inside as the holy spirit would tell me,

someday I’m going to thank this person who loves my very life.

(:

October 20, 2010

Love?

Filed under: Blibical, Rantings — Tags: , , , , , — CynthiaAcacia @ 2:58 am

I’ve been thinking about love.
Can we really claim to love G after we know the true definition of love?

1 Corinthians 13:4-10

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

 8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.

I know we’re by humans standards but is that still love?
Is that still love if we lack in one area?
Will that make me a hypocrite?
If ours is imperfect love then why is that still called love?
Hmmmmm.
So many damn questions ):<
I need to address everything!!!!!!! T_T
Tomorrow’s Financial Accounting, a bit sian.
I really have no idea what’s she talking about sometimes.
Four of my daily grades are up lol.
I will wait for the last one first before announcing haaahah.
Wanted to create tumblr posts today but decided to stop at one.
Cause ): felt very bored..
I’ve feel so sian ever since Facebook’s Critter island suddenly disappeared to thin air.
Wtheck ): Sian ttm.
Ok nights! I should be asleep ):<

September 21, 2010

What is really?

Filed under: Blibical, Random crap (: — Tags: , , , , , , , , , — CynthiaAcacia @ 1:09 pm

Here’s the thing,

  • if you reject the church = you reject God’s bride = you reject God.
  • if you reject His people = you reject His children = you reject God.
  • if you reject Jesus = you reject His son = you reject God.
  • if you reject the bible = you reject His word = you reject God.
  • if you reject His promises = you reject His promises and blessings = you reject God.
  • if you reject the teachings = you reject His words = you reject God.
  • if you reject His prophets = you reject His warnings and blessings = you reject God.
  • if you reject the resurrection = you reject His salvation = you reject God.

if you lived your life not according to His ways and words, here’s the truth: You have rejected God.

1 John 4:3
2This is how you can recognize the Spirit of God: Every spirit that acknowledges that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is from God, 3but every spirit that does not acknowledge Jesus is not from God. This is the spirit of the antichrist, which you have heard is coming and even now is already in the world.
 
Definition of the Antichrist.
  1. You want a Godly life.
  2. You want a blessed life.
  3. You want a life full of miracles.
  4. You want to be loved by God.
  5. You want to have a closer relationship with Him.
  6. You want to do things for His kingdom.
  7. You want to be a powerful vessel.
  8. You want to grow spiritually.
  9. You want to mature spiritually.
  10. You want to be salt and light.
  11. You want to experience God in a real dimension.
  12. You want to know / affirm that God is real.
Yet you don’t have a consistent and purposeful prayer life.
Then I tell you, none of it is achievable.
If all passageways are closed, how will He speak into your life – powerfully?
When you pray, pray to know Christ.
You know why so many atheists / disbeliever / backsliders gave up on God?
Because God wasn’t there for them, He wasn’t real?
Those are rubbish.
One of Satan’s most exploited methods of causing us to sin.
Tell you what, it’s because they all tried too hard.
Ever heard anyone said: I really tried, I really tried really hard!
God loves those who do not rest disobedient, not those who work hard!
When you pray, expect.

Working hard is important, yes.

But faith is not the sort of thing that can be acquired by trying harder.
Never try to have more faith – just get to know God better.
And because God is faithful, the better you know him, the more you’ll trust him.
Another test atheists / disbeliever / backsliders fail?
The test of time and patience.
They give up so easily.
What’s years compared to eternity?
Never give up on God, because He never gave up on you.
 
 

RANDOM:

Hahha I think he’s cute. LOL. That’s him in Haiti.

Check out his art pieces http://www.threadless.com/profile/911946/the_Sleeping_Sky
LOL, his art is amazing (:
Judging from his art, he does mostly computer + painting + charcoal + pen drawings.
Lols and yes, his art was the one who gave me a fetish to start picking up my materials again.
He’s 17.07 years old (= HAHAHA. Which also probably means he’s a February baby (:
I know, this is totally random.

September 20, 2010

Hmmm, thinking.

Filed under: Blibical, Rantings — Tags: , , , , , , — CynthiaAcacia @ 10:41 pm

I’ve been thinking about hitch hiking. And the hitch hike I had few months back.
And, I think G, has been good to me.
All my needs have been taken care of, why do I always always always worry.
God is a God of resources, I need to take that childlike faith and step forth.

You know, if I should have a relationship with someone, I want one who doesn’t cloud my life with God, but strengthens it and gives it new meaning to God’s love. Their words should be full of hope and wisdom. Full of fight and God. Full of purity and passion.

With new heights comes new testings, let my passion burn.
I want to be a millionaire so freaking bad~ lol.
I’m having a fetish to paint.
Let’s do that on Wednesday, tomorrow’s going to Sentosa with unit.
And Wednesday is going Sentosa again, with Kayaking people.
Wonder if I should wave in the wavehouse?
Ok wait then I can’t paint on Wednesday.
I plan to discontinue kayaking soon due to health problems.
And please Cynthia, WAKE UP to go to RP for your password! )=
And yes Shreedhee -.- I need to hold on to my promise to stop lusting.
Hais I have a question, burning. And I can’t find an answer to it or even solve it.

Think. Think. Think.

Faith. Passion. Love.
We musn’t do it anymore for at the point of discovering something new that excites us.
Hmm, I guess, we shouldn’t yearn to go back to the passion we had when we first received.
That’s passion from excitment.
It dies down, usually over a period of time.
I guess that our passion should come from the love we have for God.
As our faith grows stronger so should our love and passion.
Hmm, it makes sense doesn’t it?
Because this kind of passionate love, never dies.
Hmmm.

September 5, 2010

Mixed.

Filed under: Blibical, Random crap (:, Rantings — Tags: , , , , , , , , — CynthiaAcacia @ 2:25 pm

3 different stories, 3 different emotions.

1) Yesterday, God told me:

Seek first my Kingdom and all will be given and added to you.

He showed me a glass heart, inside it was a castle. This represented the Kingdom of God. It’s just like the story of the small, large and medium rocks. We should always put the large rocks in before putting the medium and small rocks, if not all rocks will not be able to fit in.

 

The Kingdom of God is like the largest rock. If we are to experience the glory and promises of God to its fullest, we have to put the castle in first, into our hearts. In the middle of our lives. Then followed by all the other things. If we are to put other things first, it is impossible to fit in the castle. Because it’s so big, and many a times when Christians cry out to God that He is not as into their lives as God wants them to be, are they willing to sacrifice other priorities for the biggest priority? Are they willing to put the Kingdom of God first? Are they willing to take a leap of faith and make the sacrifice?

Many a times God has told us again and again, that He will add to the faithful and obedient, God will definitely not shortchange you. He will definitely reward you hundredfold, thousandfold of what you had sacrificed. And many a times it just comes to us as hey, if I didn’t sacrifice what was good in those days how could I have had the best? Vice versa if you did not put God first in your life.

God cannot fully work in us without our permission because of free will, if you do not allow God to be in the centre of your life, how can your life be of a powerful vessel? 

2) Thanks WeiLoong for being so kind as to walk me back to a place where I can recognise. I have no doubts that your future prospective wife/girlfriend or current heart throb LOL will find you to be of a haha well I don’t know. But I guess you’re one of the better guys I’ve ever seen. Zzz, that’s a compliment HAHA. Well, I keep saying: What the. LOL influenced by Shreedhee. I really thank God that I’m currently a CD instead of the past me being a DC. If not, I would have clashed head-on with Yicong HAHA. And I’m sure we’ll be of a match (Or I’d probably be able to win either way and piss her off in the process) so neither will win which will result in conflicts, WWIII. But now, I would just be of a slacker when she domineers. Which is a good thing I guess. Yicong rarely backs down when she domineers. Zzz haha ok just like me. LOL. Except that I’m so prideful that I will consider who the person is before I consider stepping back (: Another of a good thing is that I don’t really mind her doing it, as she never oversteps the line or makes me feel threatened haha. Which I guess, is lucky. Or, we’ll be just the next generation of enemies lol. Yea, God’s plan is great! Thank God, I don’t like conflicts. I just can’t help it when I feel threatened haha. I’m like a forever PMS-ing kid ): Leanne’s sick btw, she’s having chicken pox. Aww, I’m immune to it already ahha. I remember getting mine in K2. Itchy ): Ah well, I guess it’s better for her to have it now than to have it nearer to her wedding. That will be kind of a sad thing. The myth of a cross is a book that a Muslim wrote to expose the supposedly “flaws” of the bible. Haha aww, I think some of the questions are really just pinpointing and some are really well, use brain can answer le but Zzz, I’m able to answer them. Kana tricked by the title -.- I thought it was a Christian book. Never mind, it will get my brain working anyway.

3) Few days back, I have had a bad experience with a particular person. My conscience is clear, I did nothing wrong to incur your wrath. You may love them a lot as you claim but if something as silly as a bad memory of remembering your favourite stars names is to destroy a friendship, I don’t think you’re a good friend to me. Seriously. That’s just a stupid, naive excuse. I did not attack your group although I do not have a preference for Korean star or stars for that matter. Really, don’t you think I have better things to do and worry about? Do you think I did it on purpose? If I did, may God punish me for my judgmental heart. But I didn’t, I go through as much as loving you as a friend thus didn’t comment anything on your favourite stars group although seriously speaking, its idolism. Oh what do you care about it anyway, to you I’m just stupid not to like Korean idols. And you should know I not only mix up their names I mix up other people’s names too, is it my fault that I’ve been born this way? I even mix up my name sometimes, is mercy not to be shown on me? Did you really had to go that far as to insult me with vulgarities? It hurt me, it really did. And I thought friends would be more important that idols. But I was wrong wasn’t I? This is an unmerciful world. Was Jesus ever wrong to say that? Sometimes, people think christian doctrines are plain crap and full of shit. I would like to say it just holds the truths and is reflective of who humans really are today. People just don’t like being exposed of their flaws.

August 20, 2010

God, we have a fad crisis :/

Filed under: Blibical — Tags: , , , — CynthiaAcacia @ 1:21 pm

Turn here turn there all about relationships -.-

Apparently, humans can praise the guy/girl they “love” more than the God they “love”.
It’s certainly amusing to see how “love” just overflows from their heart,
when they talk about their lover.
Yet when they praise God, it’s always the same few words.
I guess it’s cause we don’t love Him enough to put Him above all?
What’s the idea of having relationships and leaving God?

Are all those words that you have all spoken in the past just lies and bullshit?

Hello? Your life, not their life.
Sure go on and “prove” that it can both be a balance to the church.
It’s hard work, it’s going to be even harder when he/she starts going against it.
Anyway, seriously nobody cares about the proving.
What do you need to prove?
Look here, I’m not even going to try to go against it.

But 99% of the time, you are all going to end up regretting it.

Fact or fiction? Fact.

I tested it out by changing my Facebook status.
Indeed the response was fast and swift.
What I’m more disappointed in is that,
nobody even cares to discourage it.
So can I conclude what your said in the past was just a recitation?
Or perhaps your no longer believed in what your had said.
Are your hypocrites?
It’s funny how things can change so much in a blinking of an eye.

Was I wrong to say “God has delivered me out of suffering”?

Do your want to know the truth? He wanted to test this generation.

Please just stay strong, it will pass soon.
Perhaps it’s partly my fault that I did not share this prophecy.
Look, it has come to pass, now go.
 
 

In a land of darkness,

where has the light gone to?

August 2, 2010

Abortion.

Filed under: Blibical, Random crap (: — Tags: , , , , , — CynthiaAcacia @ 10:05 pm

From: Kwan =D who cut his hair today!

Hi, Mommy. I’m your baby. You don’t know me yet, I’m only a few weeks old. You’re going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I’ve got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don’t have it yet, but I will when I’m born. I’m going to be your only child, and you’ll call me your one and only. I’m going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We’ll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.

You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn’t wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.

Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! …He wasn’t happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don’t think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don’t think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay… but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That’s a sound I don’t like. It doesn’t make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I’m not sure if I do. It wasn’t right. You say he loves you… why would he hurt you? I don’t like it, Mommy.

Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you’re so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I’m happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.

I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.

Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn’t talking right. He said he didn’t want you. I don’t know why, but that’s what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won’t let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don’t care if you think that he is a good person, I think he’s bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn’t want us. He doesn’t like me. Why doesn’t he like me, Mommy?

You didn’t talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?

It’s been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven’t talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don’t you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don’t you do that when you’re awake, any more?

I’m 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren’t you proud of me? We’re going somewhere today, and it’s somewhere new. I’m excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you’re as excited as I am. I can’t wait.

…Mommy, I’m getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don’t know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something’s going to happen soon. I’m really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don’t worry Mommy, I’m safe. I’m in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it’s called an abortion.

Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don’t you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I’m really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don’t you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn’t I love you enough? Please say you’ll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don’t want to be here, I want you to love me again! I’m really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!

I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.

Best solution? Never give birth-.-

LOL cause I don’t like the pain :/

July 21, 2010

Part 2: A smile of love.

Filed under: Blibical, Random crap (: — Tags: , , , — CynthiaAcacia @ 10:45 pm

Ever seen an angel?
I saw one admist a crowd today.
She was beautifully stunning.
And she smiled at me.
I’ve talked to her before, I’ve got to know her.
And still, she’s so sincere, kind, caring, loving that it radiates out of her.
She goes and touches everyone’s lives.
She touched mine strongly.
Everytime I want God to prove His worth, His existence.
Everytime God knew I was on the ledge, ready to fall into Satan’s lair.
He’d sent this beautiful angel to meet me.
To pass by me.
But with that same radiating smile.
It had been long since I saw this wonderful creature.
I saw her twice this year.
She floated past me today, wearing that illuminating smile.
A smile of sincere love.
I smiled.
I forgot everything.
Everything seemed secondary.
Tears of joy.
I love this angel.

Regina,

thank you.

July 5, 2010

Letter 2: Lover.

Filed under: Blibical — Tags: , , , , — CynthiaAcacia @ 10:35 am

Lover, hmm. God? :/ Ahh well.

To my lover: Dear God,
here’s your child speaking. The sad thing is that I won’t get to die, well I have to wait for another time. Well, let’s get on with this letter (: You know, I don’t exactly know your name or how you look like. But hey, although that gives me the reason to doubt I guess I can’t after all the miracles you’ve gave in my life. Hey dad, thanks for looking after me these many years even though I haven’t been exactly obedient. I have been defiant, unyielding and stubbornly refused you many a times. But you still loved me. Thank you God for being my best friend. I know I have broken your heart many a times and have left you countless times for desires and sins. You have patiently guided me to the way of life but I have also constantly strayed from it, I have shouted at you. Hurled insults and in the past, vulguar at you. Everything seemed to be your fault when things are down. I never seemed to appreciate you enough and the sinful things I do, breaks your heart. But you still loved me.
Thank you God for being my protector, I have often gotten myself into undesirable situations but you have always ben there, holding your protection around what might harm me. You have also protected me from my thoughts, wild and tame. I have not only not been appreciative of it, I have complained against it. But you still loved me. Thank you for being a teacher, someone who pastors and stretches me. Someone who knows how far my limit is and stretches me accordingly. Someone who loves me for who I am, even when I’m not exactly the best student around. Thank you God, for being God. Thank you for who you are and the spiritual giftings and the calling you have gave me. Thank you for always believing in me and using me to do the impossible. Although I do complain about all these, you still loved me. Thank you God,
 

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