Gek Kee, Jia Jin and Jia Jin’s friend Emily came tertiary service today~ Lmao I keep remembering Emily as Vivien :/ Hahahs, but congrats on joining West family (: heh I’m literally an ex-West =.= You converting brought hope into me, God taught me there is still hope. And that He is still going to work in me. Ate Popeye’s two piece chicken. Lmao. Shreedhee told me he’s there I look everywhere in the end just beside me -.- Ok so lame and dumb. But just imagine my happiness >:) Today Eliton smiled at me WAHAHAHHAHAHAHA xD (Y) I think he smiles like a kid heheheehehe. Saw Bernard studying at SMU? NUS? hahahha. I like his voice >:)
I have a headache from lack of sleep :/Tomorrow going Science centre to volunteer again with two out of all my favourite people in my life (: Hahhas Shermy and Kwan kwan ^^ Touched not HAHAHAH. Hmmm, I guess my definition of favourite people are people I will never mind spending time with? :) LOLs they are people I will go all out for without anybody telling me to. Hehe. And well, I think less than 10 in my life hahahha. I dread Science centre >:( But I’m looking forward to sharing life with them (: Lmao, Science centre makes me think of what Shermy and I experienced yesterday HAHAH. His middle finger got stuck in a ring LOL. I had to literally use force to pull it out. Lmao, it will be funny if he had to buy the ring.
I was broke down today. I hate being not trusted. I hate being doubted.It’s more heart breaking when you’ve put the past aside while the person still holds strongly to it. It’s irritating to get said and pulled down when all you did was do God’s work. These are the people in my life that made me stop and scream why! WHY am I still doing God’s work with all these ungrateful people around?
Persecuted for doing G’s work by yor own brother in spirit? That sucks really. You want to clarify, but you hold back. Cause why would you listen? You never did listen. I refuse to get pulled down by you anymore. No matter how many times I say I don’t want to have anything to do with you anymore, I know I can’t. Cause even though I dislike you, I cannot not do God’s work. This is a contrast between my mouth and heart. Why would someone just go back and get hurt over and over again? Get pulled down over and over again? That feeling, is persecution. Persecuted for doing God’s work. I thought and thought, I cannot comprehend why you must live in the past actions. But just to let you know, I really do love God and His people deep down. That shapes me inside no matter how you view me from the outside. You know, the feeling sucks. But it made me think deep. And I realised why I serve God, why I do what I do. I really love Him and His people, His kingdom is more important than what I think.
Didn’t go home with WeiLoong today :( Sad.SEE WEILOONG! I’M SAD. You break my HEART LOL :P LOL, but haha I really like going home with you la :) LOL. Kwan was celebrating his friends’ birthday so.. :/ I went home with GekKee, JiaJin and Emily instead hahaha. LOL, Emily ): Q hair and bui here and there HAHAHAH.