Back from the dentist,
really have to thank God for being God.
I don’t know whatever miracle He did.
Either He made that decay less deep or He simply took the pain away.
Because it really didn’t hurt as much.
Which in simple fact,
is a miracle.
Well at first there were few tingling of pain,
cause I obviously didn’t trust He take the pain away (haha).
But I slowly relaxed and allowed Him to work.
And poof (: Even when the drill touched the deepest part,
no pain xD
Haa, so which guy said no pain no gain?
I no pain but I got gain ahhahahaha =D
Alrightes, have to take more notice of my teeth le.
It’s really funny how I’m scared of this kind of pain =.=”
Hmm, but the total costed $51.
Kind of cheap actually.
Cause I was expecting up to hundreds LOL.
Went RP to return book.
Sian, I’m one day late.
Brought Large subway and headed home.
I guess I will start give 5 thanksgiving to God everyday.
In the hope of becoming more joyful LOL.
I’m so disturbed by many things recently.
I still can’t get an answer that I am satisfied with.
It’s not that I am obsessed with the topic of free will,
but I’m just greatly disturbed by it.
I am also greatly disturbed by the fact that my tooth decay has almost reached my nerves.
It unnerves me.
It makes me scared, I’m scared of pain.
I am scared by the fact that the not so deep decays has already hurt so much when drilled,
how about these two deep ones?
And the fact that I’m going to be awake feeling the pain doesn’t help at all.
The article that my whatever will be infected doesn’t help at all.
The thought of feeling that much pain just makes me want to surrender.
I’d wish I could just pluck it out, but then I won’t have any more bottom molars,
since I had already plucked four molars out due to my small space in my mouth.
Also, I’ve just straightened my teeth, plucking it out would be a waste of money and time.
People, don’t ever go to government to make braces, they are a total waste of time as :
This tooth thing, will really be a test of faith for me.
I’m really super disturbed by it.
Thank God I met Eilton from NS group though (:
Haha I think I don’t regret going to watch movie and hanging around with them just this monday.
Prince of Persia :)
I’m so inspired by him. Haahhaa.
Truly a man of God!
I also understand why they encourage people to marry within the church le.
Go talk to him and you will know why! xD
LOL (: I know many leaders have told me that I am insecure but obviously I just didn’t care lol.
I spent four years plus ( Primary 6 – NOW) to just straighten my teeth
It’s a hassle to change appointments as they are going to put you to a very far schedule
They expect you to report there on time but NEVER do your teeth on time
They don’t have a sense of urgency for the more serious cases
If you’re in Republic polytechnic, your appointments will result in you going partial
The dentists there pretty much care more about finishing their job than your comfort.
But that day he just randomly told me this after saying I’m a melachony :
But you really have to grow in your character and insecurities.
Hit the spot.
I don’t know why but it just felt so different.
Anyway, I realised the personalities is very spot on too.
I’m a sanguine – melachony.
Two opposing personalites.
Sanguine, life of the party.
But, don’t talk deep (oops.)
Haha I put that cause I forgot,
lol but will fill it in soon.
The visit to the dentist
I’m feeling so confused now,
I don’t know what to say.
But since I’m already writing this,
let’s do this the easy way.
Let’s start this with my insanity,
my fears, it drains.
And to top it off,
let me warn you first,
it’s full of pain.
I guess you all know I have a rather bad decay.
Not one not three but two holes in my teeth,
and to the readers out there who think I’m crazy,
it’s definitely not in my brain,
cause I am sane.
It pains me so to think that tomorrow is the day,
where I finally have to endure that dentist whom I hated that very day.
With his drill, his pick, his tiny little stick,
he’d poked and probed until he got that out with a flick.
And oh god, I can’t endure,
that very pain it gives,
as he probs and pokes that vulnerable molar teeth.
And sometimes I would wonder if it’s worth the pain,
to endure this sickening moment,
just for the sake of gain.
Oh God please just spare me the pain,
for I am weak,
unwilling and definitely full of shame.
And just let me end this with a word sorrow,
for I am now a confused fool
who has forgotten what’s real gold.
Note: You can either rap or just read this as a poem.