Choose.

This is what the world aims to achieve.

Call me dumb, but if I’m totally conscious I’d choose none.

I’d give up eveything to get God.

It seems impossible, humans are never perfect.

Their heart is divided.

But i’ve known. I’ve saw.

Everything failed me.

Although sometimes I blame God for failing me, it’s me who actually failed myself.

Humans have never failed to blame others.

I have never failed to blame God.

If I could solely make it whole, I’d make it whole.

My lists of top five blames to God. ( most often from  top to bottom )

1. My life
2. The fact that I’m a thinker
3. My different way of thinking 
4. My office gift and the sometimes disturbing visions and dreams
5. The fact that I’m not a flawless human

Please let me die.